self evaluation on Monolgue assesment

Self evaluation on Acting monologue.

During the rehearsal process, I felt that every practical session of practicing my monologue I was getting positive and useful feedback of my teacher that I needed to interpret for my actual exam.

One of the main feedback was to interpret my character a lot more stronger, due to my Character being about a Mother who is stressed and is finding it hard to cope with the repetition of every day tasks for her family. Therefore I  studied closely of when I used to live with my mother how she reacted when all of my sisters would ask her to do every day tasks that did not benefit her,  I remember the different tone levels that were used, these were always showing the relationship between the emotion that she was physically feeling.  I also got told to use the space more, and interpret a lot more, due to my Monologue explaining every day routines of what she is doing, like , ‘Look at my self in the mirror, eurgh’ turn back around hopeing to see somebody else’. There can be a lot of Character and emotions for this, interpreting by actually physically responding to the instructions. My main feedback was to learn all the monologue, due to thinking about what comes next was showing due to not interpreting any character as I could physically feel I was concerntrating on the next line, therefore I was not showing no emotions or my Character role of a ‘mother’.

On the 1^st of May 2014, I had my Acting Assignment. During this I felt nervous due to not actually performing a Monolgue before In exam conditions, so when I saw the layout of the camera, desk for examiner this made me nervous, but I knew I only had one shot.

I was 7^th to perform my Monolgue, I felt this was a good time due to calming down and preparing my voice before entering the exam room. When I went into the exam room I felt from opening the door that I stepped into Character of a mother, my costume also helped, I tried to get the feminine look, black trousers, books, scarf and leather jacket, I made sure that my scarf was loose and did not interact with my voice, knowing that I looked the part helped me physically feel the monologue a lot more.

The week before the assignment, during class we did some activitys that would help a lot, this was to show the different levels of emotion and vocals through a strong relationship with each other, I had a partner who would try and stop me from walking, I would then push by trying to walk while there hands were on my shoulder, this helped dramatically, expecially for my first line. ‘ I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE’ just from the text being in capitals shows the contrast of anger and frustration that needs to be interpreted. Therefore I responded to this, by shouting it with my hands in the air, to show physical meaning to this line. I strongly felt I used my special awareness, so that the camera was on focus with me throughout the whole Monologue, special awareness was important due to my piece being very on going,  and I interpreted that mothers are never standing in one place there always moving and so I did this throughout the whole piece and felt I took control.

However I did not forget any lines, I made it to the end of the piece, and felt very proud of myself due to previous sessions I was stuttering and forgot lines, I felt this did not happen because from walking into the room I took control and had focus straight away, therefore remembered my lines and had character for all of the piece, I did not loose it.

My interpretation worked really well, the Monologue was much more clearer to understand with all the actions I interpreted.  ‘ Looked at myself in the mirror eurgh’  I walked over to the other side, pausing for a second, then looking closely in the mirror like I would do before leaving the house, this helped a lot , as well as I remembered the emotion, I physically said this very depressed and upset due to the sight I was seeing.  I also pretended that there was other individuals with me ‘ Kiss Dave goodbye’ I did this even though there was no body there I still reached out and gave a kiss.  This was also the same for Sally I pretended to hold her hand to catch the bus, as well as comb her hair.

I really enjoyed this Monologue and felt that this was the right choice for me, due to always being in a rush looking after others before me, but also it reminded me of my mother who I do not live with no more. I felt all the corrections and advice given in the passed incredibly helped and I interpreted these to get the highest grade I possibly could. I overall felt this went really well and was pleased with the outcome.